Finnspace

I went to bed early last night. Go me. I really should do this more often as I woke up a bit more rested than normal. Funny how that works. But then I woke up in somewhat of a pissy mood this morning. Maybe its the constant rain, maybe it was a frustrating conversation I had last night, or maybe it’s just me being a girl.

Whatever the reason, I am happy that it’s Friday and honestly, my only goal today is to make it till 5:00. Sad I know. I realize that I bemoan my acute boredom to the point of excess. But really, some days are not as bad as others. My thing is that I always want/need something to look forward to to get through the day. Even if it’s something as simple as 5:00, or as exciting as my upcoming trip to NYC.

I’m always counting down to something. I want to learn to live in the moment but I really suck at that. When I look back over the past six years or so I cringe at all the time I’ve wasted always looking forward and not embracing the present. But how do you do that exactly? I suppose part if it is an attitude adjustment. Ok, most of it. And another part is to quit yer bitchin’ and DO something. Less talk, more do. Less writing about it, more getting out there and DOING it. Whatever IT is. That’s another problem…what is IT?

Maybe I complicate and overthink these life choice things. Alright, I’m positive that I do. Eh, this post is wandering into hazy territory. I’ll figure it out someday. In the meantime you can find my melancholy mug in the self-help section of your local bookstore.