guilt, uselessness, and two kinds of bikes

“Your guilt-meter is so jacked up”….actually said to me by my shrink today. She pulls no punches and I love that. We talked about guilt, which seems to be a theme in my life. I am full of “shoulds”…I should feel this way, I should act that way, I should believe such and such, I should do this, I shouldn’t do that…and when I don’t … Continue reading guilt, uselessness, and two kinds of bikes

Rainy run

Today’s run was much much much better than my last one. My only goal was to finish the scheduled training day (5 min run/1 min walk for 48 min, plus warm up/cool down) without crapping out. Goal accomplished. 4.1 miles in the rain. Have I mentioned how much I love running in the rain? Minus any lightning of course. It just feels…good. Oh, and the … Continue reading Rainy run

brain float

Today = the dentist = nitrous oxide = I AM THE MOST HILARIOUS PERSON IN THE UNIVERSE. For about 40 minutes anyway. Some thoughts while floating… Don’t stop breathing, keep breathing, take the deepest breaths you have ever taken in your life, don’t waste this precious sh!t. Oh wow, hands and feet are so numb…OMG do I even HAVE hands and feet??? I must be … Continue reading brain float

Yesterday’s workout

Because you care. I decided to give the foot another day off. Plus, I’m scared I will go crazy if I run on it and it acts ugly so I’m delaying expected disappointment. Such a great attitude I have, I know. Anyway, the gym was good for me as it always is. Mind clearing and blood pumping and stress reducing. Good stuff! Tonight…an attempted run … Continue reading Yesterday’s workout

Yummy ugly pizzas, blue skies, and flowers

It was a gorgeous weekend to be outside! I put my bad run out of my mind and kept busy with other things. The Accountant and kiddo went grocery shopping and came back with pizza makings and flowers for me, just because. They then proceeded to make the ugliest pizza I have ever seen. But, it was delicious, after we peeled the “tin foil” off … Continue reading Yummy ugly pizzas, blue skies, and flowers

why did the chicken cross the road?

Soooooo, today was interesting. I was already planning to spend a few hours at the wildlife rehab place doing laundry or dishes or whatever they needed. I was getting ready to go and saw an email that someone had four baby opossums that they’d found orphaned alongside the road because guess what, momma opossum had done got herself run over. Imagine that. The lady that … Continue reading why did the chicken cross the road?

this is why i’m in therapy folks

Texts this morning from yet another friend who is struggling for different reasons. Sometimes people are incredibly mean, closed minded, and heartless in their well-meaning-ness, if that makes any sense. I know life is difficult and there are struggles to be had. Its not all peachy keen, hunky dory, sunshine, rainbows, and unicorns, but I really don’t think it should be THIS hard for some … Continue reading this is why i’m in therapy folks

Four miles

Run/walk/sweatfest/triednottodie on the greenway today. I got four miles in and was happy with it for the most part. I didn’t make it out the door at 5:30 as planned, as I’m not good at plans apparently. So it was hot as blacksmith tongs by the time I did get out there. I did decent for the first couple of miles and then psyched myself … Continue reading Four miles

head meet ache meet perspective

No workout tonight. My head is splitting. Pain. I’m guessing a combo of being a girl (yay, lucky me, men are stupid*, don’t look at me in that tone of voice, etc), and the fact that I ate weirdly and non-healthily today. And did I mention the cramps? TMI? Oh, I’m sorry but this is my blog and I’ll talk about my female issues if … Continue reading head meet ache meet perspective