My professor seems to think so. But first, a bit of catch up. Two big things… I’ve reentered grad school for the third time. Perhaps I’ll graduate by the time I’m officially geriatric, although that’s not really the point. I now cohost a podcast with a close friend, because I needed something to do during COVID lockdown and I’m a horrible bread baker. Both of … Continue reading Virtuous Creativity
Sometimes all the time I need a little help to keep me from freaking out at the dentist. The following are snippets from the times I remembered to document it over the years. 11.15.2005 The Dentist is the Devil 02.12.2007 Thoughts Floating in a Nitrous Clouded Mind 09.11.2007 The Only Time I Find Ceiling Tiles Amusing 11.02.2009 You Know You’re High When… 07.30.2013 Brain Float Continue reading From the Dentist’s Chair
Today I did something that ranks in the top three dumbest things I’ve ever done. Being something of a scatterbrain, I do a lot of dumb things. I lose my keys at least three times a week, put toothpaste in the refrigerator, go the wrong way coming out of stores in the mall, can’t find my car in parking lots and garages—things like that. It’s Wednesday … Continue reading The Morning Burglar
It’s an ungodly hour of the morning and I am standing in the kitchen working my tongue around the chalky disposition of my third antacid tablet. Stumbling sleepily back to the corner cabinet where the remedies for all sorts of ailments are stored, I return the well-used bottle and grasp my lower back to give myself a firm massage on the aching muscles. I have … Continue reading TUMS at 3:30 a.m.
There’s something comforting about knowing that you always have a place to come back to. It’s been well over a year, and as is my way, I disappeared. But I always return. I’ve embraced the notion that I’m always going to be like an ocean wave— forever changing, shifting, growing, shrinking, pulling back, coming just within reach, but not quite—always returning to land. Welcome home. Continue reading Main Street
Here’s that tattoo I mentioned a few posts ago. I’m in love with it. A southern moon is a sodden moon, and sultry. When it swamps the fields and the rustling sandy roads and the sticky honeysuckle hedges in its sweet stagnation, your fight to hold on to reality is like a protestation against a first waft of ether. -Zelda Fitzgerald, Save Me the Waltz Continue reading I did the thing
I posted this on Facebook today but wanted it here as well. A good portion of my job is to be on Facebook and social media in general. Otherwise, I would find right now a good time to take a break, and I think it will serve me well to go ahead and limit the amount of time spent on my personal account going forward … Continue reading What is Happening?
This was originally published on Girl Go Glow, but I wanted it to live here, too. The timing is right to post it tonight. I let my meds lapse and have been trying to hold it together mentally for the past couple of weeks until I can get back to the doctor on Tuesday for a new prescription. I did what you should never do … Continue reading Sometimes I’m Sad Panda
So, here’s some news. Mom, brace yourself. I decided to get another tattoo! I went by the shop yesterday after work and got it scheduled for his next available appointment in July. This will be my third piece and will be done by the same artist who did my first one several years ago. Why do people get permanent art on their bodies and why … Continue reading tattoo talk
My latest therapy session was a good one. We spent a lot of time talking about simply wanting to feel better and using that as motivation rather than relying on a number on the scale or the size of my pants to dictate my mood. I’m feeling all of my 42 years plus about 10 more these days. I shouldn’t struggle so much to get … Continue reading Therapy: On Feeling Better
I have seen my father break. Crushed under the weight of the illness and death of his own father when I was a teenager. Then again when cancer took his mother and only brother within mere weeks of each other. I know what it looks like when my father breaks. And there is no shame or weakness in the breaking. Now I watch my mother. … Continue reading breaking
I can breathe for the first time…Just kidding. After about a year’s absence I kinda just have to start over here. Here are the major highlights: I started a new job! 🙂 Our dog died. 😦 I restarted and then quit grad school. Again. 😦 I’ve gained about 20 pounds. 😦 One out of four is not great, I realize. But the steady stream of … Continue reading Since You’ve Been Gone
I purchased the finnspace domain name today. Is that what it’s called? I’m just techy enough to be dangerous. Hi again internet. Photo by Arnel Hasanovic on Unsplash Continue reading official
I have an overwhelming list of things to do. So I think I’ll do the completely unnecessary tasks of messing with blog templates, editing photos, and creating websites. If I could get paid for this I’d be golden. Happy Weekend! Photo by Chris Barbalis on Unsplash Continue reading Template Changes Equal Procrastination
Sometimes you’re in the middle of folding laundry and are watching Abstract: The Art of Design on Netflix at the same time and thinking about how you’ve been in this really weird frustrating place for the past several days. It’s a place you find yourself over and over again, probably once every couple of months at a minimum. It’s restlessness to the extreme, but restlessness … Continue reading the place
My time management skills are the pits. As are my organizational skills, which I feel would be much better if my time management skills were better. Or maybe it’s the other way around? Which came first, the organized Finn or the efficient Finn? Half the time I feel like I’m barely keeping it together without losing my mind, giving up, and just crawling under the … Continue reading managing time
I just bought this sweet little dress from modcloth.com for an event I’m going to in a couple of weeks. I REALLY hope it fits and that it gets here in time. Eek. But seriously, how cute is this??? UPDATE: It fit! Mostly. I mean, I wore it to the burlesque show with some super cute red wedges and rocked it, of course. But I … Continue reading cherry a-line
Differing viewpoints are fascinating aren’t they? Every argument has multiple facets and the people holding steadfast to their positions have different histories, experiences, and reasons for feeling as they do. Variety is the spice of life and makes the world go ‘round, right? If we all thought exactly the same way (or were forced to) it would be quite the boring world, or else an … Continue reading be kind
My friends are sick. Two of them, from completely different circles in my life. I am what they have in common. That, and cancer. Bone cancer, breast cancer. They want to take my friend’s jaw completely off. They’ve already taken part of my friend’s breast. A singer’s jaw. A mother’s breast. Life is full of shitty irony. I’m watching them break down but I do … Continue reading when your friends have cancer
One thing each day that makes me feel good and is good for me. I mean, a box of Little Debbie’s makes me feel good for a minute but I suppose that is unfortunately out of the realm of self care. Today was early morning meditation. My mind was in epic form, wandering all over the place but that’s kind of the point; to constantly … Continue reading self care
…has already had quite a few ups and downs. The Ups My dad’s store moved to a new location and it is pretty amazing. Nicer and newer with better parking and facilities. It’s been a stressful time for him but I think things are finally settling down and falling into place. Hubs had some big/positive things happen at his work that are in his/our favor. … Continue reading 2016 so far
I have that Adele song stuck on repeat in my head. It’s 4:00 am and I’ve been up for a bit. Kiddo has a cold and is snot breathing and gritting her teeth. As she is in my bed tonight, you can understand why I’m not sleeping well. Poor kid though. I know she feels crappy. I got up and tried to make her blow … Continue reading Hello
I agree with this article, to a point. Why You’re Depressed and Not Getting Better I’ve asked myself this very question many times and yet again over the past few weeks. It’s been a very low time. I’ve missed work because I couldn’t get out of bed. I’ve gotten ready for work and then had a breakdown in my garage and ended up crying and … Continue reading The Struggle Bus
The best laid plans… I seem to fail a lot. And this time it’s not even because I’m being lazy or procrastinating or anything like that. Its because I can barely walk in the mornings and throughout the day after sitting for a while, and although the foot pain eases, I can’t go more than 3 miles before I have to stop. At first I … Continue reading feet frustration
