you know that feeling when you know you should go to bed because its really late but you don’t want to because your mind is whirling and you can’t shut your brain off, plus you’re not really sleepy and are just in that dreamy state of mind where random bizarre thoughts pop into your head and you are really considering driving to the airport and … Continue reading

paranoia and good things

I am the champion of all things paranoid. Or something like that. Life is really good right now and I sometimes feel like I’m teetering on a tower of blessings and good things that will sooner or later, topple to the ground when something bad happens to disturb it. And I wonder if I’m jinxing it by even writing this. See? Paranoid. I am enjoying … Continue reading paranoia and good things

snippets

What are those nuts called that are shaped like kidneys? I like those. And peanuts. Peanuts are my favorite. Almonds I will tolerate but they don’t really do it for me. I just ate this and it was good. I had a turkey sandwich, baked Lays and an apple for lunch. Exciting noms no? Stuff is happenin’ around here. Tomorrow I’m moving into a new … Continue reading snippets

where did i go?

This morning I heard myself yell up the stairs to kiddo as she skittered away from me to avoid putting on her socks like I’d told her to multiple times. “You are fixin’ to get a time out young lady!!!!” Yes, I said “fixin” just like that, without the g, and I added in a stern “YOUNG LADY” for shock value. I cringed inside as … Continue reading where did i go?

grumpy mcgrumperson

I am not a fan of small talk nor am I very good at it. Post holiday small talk tops the list of all categories of dreaded chitty-chatty-for-no-reason banter. Hello person with me in the elevator who I don’t know but who I think works in accounting…”how was your Christmas” they ask me…I say “it was great, how was yours?” And we carry on. This … Continue reading grumpy mcgrumperson

older & weirder

The thing about getting older is that we acknowledge the things that make us quirky and hopefully embrace them. Or at least laugh. So, in the shower there are various bottles of shampoo, body washes, conditioners, etc. You know, smellygood girlie stuff. Shampoo and conditioner always in matching bottles because I buy the same brand. I have recently noticed that I will pick up a … Continue reading older & weirder

whirly brain

I have this thing. Whirly brain. I have to be up in a few short hours and yet, my head won’t turn off tonight. I’m thinking of places I want to go but can’t, work, kiddo, house stuff, a new tattoo, dancing, running, crying, laughing… I am quite certain that I need to stop comparing myself to others as it never ends well. And maybe this sounds weird … Continue reading whirly brain

its 4am and I’m wondering

The oddest things occur to me in that drowsy state between having answered the call of “Mooooommy” and taking the dog out. Like, how did the person who names nail polish colors get that job? Is it a random and casual process or does a lot of thought go into the monikers of Cranberry Crush and Polynesian Purple? Is it something a marketing person comes up with while standing in front of the water cooler … Continue reading its 4am and I’m wondering

I seem to have crawled into a hole here lately and haven’t been in much of a hurry to climb out. I owe several friends emails or phone calls and have just been withdrawn in general. Sometimes I have a tendency to shut down within certain circles. I’m so weird. There’s one big reason for it and many smaller ones. and….here we are again. the above … Continue reading

reframing the day*

Very rough morning today. I was already on edge from some other things going on. On edge, as in I lay in bed for 45 minutes willing some sort of rip in the fabric of the universe to happen so that I wouldn’t have to get up. On edge, as in I didn’t shower this morning and am wearing the same jeans that I had on … Continue reading reframing the day*

this was a draft but now its not

(I found this post in my Drafts and am publishing it now, after adding to.) Sometimes I just want to peer over my glasses at people and give them the evil eye for acting inconsiderate, or closed minded, or selfish, or just plain stupid. And sometimes I do just that, under the guise of looking intelligent. But the truth is, if I ever do that peering thing at you, … Continue reading this was a draft but now its not