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2016 so far

24 Jan

…has already had quite a few ups and downs.

The Ups

My dad’s store moved to a new location and it is pretty amazing. Nicer and newer with better parking and facilities. It’s been a stressful time for him but I think things are finally settling down and falling into place.

Hubs had some big/positive things happen at his work that are in his/our favor. I’m sure it means more work and stress on his part but that comes with it.

Kiddo is happy and healthy and had a great Christmas and is doing well in school and dance. She has a lot of friends and loves her teacher. Pretty well-adjusted so far. I may pay for this in the teen years but so far so good.

I am officially a graduate student! Classes started last week and I’m pretty excited. This deserves it’s own post.

I’ve grown a lot closer to and have developed some great friendships with some amazing women at work. They have really been a wonderful support to me lately. It’s interesting because I’ve worked there for a couple of years now and have known these ladies the whole time but just in the past several months have really connected and started hanging out with them regularly.

I have been doing a ton of cross-stitching lately, for gifts and otherwise. I’ll have to post some photos. I find it very relaxing and just plain fun. My mom taught me how as a kid and it’s one of those hobbies I start and stop and eventually come back to.

The Downs

I am trying to find employment closer to home to eliminate the craptastic commute. I had a first and then second interview for a fantastic, exciting job and was really feeling good about it. I didn’t get it and I was crushed. That was/is a hard mental hit and I’m still struggling with it.

In that vein, depression is a real thing already this year. I’m dealing but it is a constant cloud that hangs over me.

I’ve already been to one funeral this year. My sweet sister-in-law’s father passed away.

I can’t seem to get in control of my weight. I’m trying and have friends who are in this with me and are a great help, but no one but me can do it. It can be so discouraging and I just want to sit in bed and eat cake. Yada yada. It’s such a weird thing. The whole body positive movement that seems to be popular these days is great. Loving the body you have now and all that jazz. I’m totally on board with OTHER people loving the body that they have…but not so much me; I don’t love the one I have and I’m not sure how to get there. You can say “I’m happy with my body, it’s beautiful, does all these great things, etc”…but to actually BELIEVE it. Not happening.

The plantar fasciitis is still bothering me. My own damn fault because I didn’t continue with PT like I was supposed to. I have a very self sabotaging mindset and this is a prime example. I do have an appointment for PT this week to start over however. Back on the horse and all that.

So there you have it!

Peas ‘n carrots,
Finn

miscellany

11 Dec

Sick. I really wish someone would bring me some warm gooey chocolate chip cookies today. I’m home sick with a fever, cough, etc etc and I say screw the chicken noodle soup, cookies are where its at. Anyway, mutter mutter growl. At least I should be over it in plenty of time to enjoy the holidays. Bright spot.

Ugly. The news these days y’all. People are so inScreen Shot 2014-12-11 at 1.14.13 PMcredibly evil. Of course, the media skews things like crazy but there is no denying that people are asshats to the extreme. The girl in MS who was burned alive…I can’t even. The parole hearing that recently brought the horrific kidnapping, torture, and murders of a Knoxville couple back into the news. And so many other things that happen every day. Racism, riots, chaos. People are so very angry. 😦 It is so easy to get consumed by it all if you let it. Countering all of this with the positive/good/beautiful things in life is a must.

Kid. Alright, on to happier topics. My kid of course. Heh. She has a Christmas dance recital this weekend which should be fun. I have no idea what her costumes are or what songs she’s dancing to so this will be a nice surprise for momma. Speaking of surprises, I thought we were going to escape it but kiddo mournfully asked The Accountant the other day why the Elf on the Shelf hadn’t visited her house yet. Apparently ALL her friends have elves and even her classroom at school. Grrrrr. I have an unreasonable hatred for that thing but she was SO bummed and we were at risk of having the whole Santa thing come crashing down, so I caved and we have now been invaded by Snowy the Elf. I am not proud of this. But kiddo thinks it fabulous and so here we are. I have put my foot down somewhat and am just moving it around the house. None of this time consuming clever elf scenario crap or posting its antics on social media. Ok ok, the first night I DID make an elf snow angel on the counter in sugar, but that is IT. So there.

Friends. I had a really good friend back in high school and college who I’d lost touch with over the past few years. We went to different high schools but attended the same church and would have sleepovers at each others houses and go on shopping trips, lots of teenage cruising around town, scoping out boys…all of that fun stuff. I moved away and we each got married. We kept in touch until the babies came and then life got busy. I sent her a Christmas card last year which got returned, so this year I made a point to hunt her down. I found her via some internet stalking research and we’ve been emailing this week! Its so great to reconnect! Keep your friends close and make them a priority because they are one of the best things in life and it sucks to lose them. I’m SO happy I found her again! Totally made my week.

Books. I’m reading some really good books lately. I have a list going on Goodreads of ones recommended by friends and some I just want to read for myself. Apparently I am missing out by not reading Neil Gaiman, according to a few friends. I’m not too far into The Ocean at the End of the Lane but so far I am really liking it. Also throwing in some Buddhism, some self help, some health related, and lots more fiction. Reading is good for the soul I say.

Bed. Ok, its back to bed for this sick girl.

summer storms

23 Jul

CaptureKiddo is breathing heavy beside me, borderline snoring through the thunder and lightning. I love storms. At least those of the non-threatening, not gonna blow your house away kind. The snoring blond bundle turns six years old tomorrow. I’m not going to say the usual “I can’t believe how big she’s getting”, or “She’s growing up so fast” because while those things are true, that’s sort of a lame observation isn’t it? She’s getting a pet hamster and having a party at our house with her little munchkin friends. It will be a good birthday.

My trip to PA was awesome and amazing for the most part. Good friends are hard to find. Good friends who are married to each other that you like equally as much, even harder. I think a few days in PA is going to become an annual summer thing for me. No complaints about that. Speaking of trips, Paris is only two weeks away and I feel very unprepared for some reason. We did order euros and I’ll pick those up tomorrow. I need to be rounding up passports, our European plug power adapters, guidebooks, and random stuff like that.

The thunder has subsided and now there’s just a soft murmur of rain that’s making me drowsy. Time to join the kiddo and do that whole snoring thing.

Lodged, by Robert Frost

The rain to the wind said,
‘You push and I’ll pelt.’
They so smote the garden bed
That the flowers actually knelt,
And lay lodged–though not dead.
I know how the flowers felt.

fresh

16 Jul

I’m not digging this template but I feel like I want a new start on this blogging thing. I want to write more so it’s completely in character for me to procrastinate on actually writing by making my writing space different and pretty. Or at least different. I’m going to have to keep playing with it. I should just suck it up and pay so I can customize like I want to.

It’s late and I should be sleeping. Or packing. Or wogging (walk+jogging) or something productive. But then again, I’m trying to work on giving myself permission to be lazy sometimes. Except that I think I might be too lazy too much of the time and the permission thing is just to make myself feel better. Haha.  Also, its hot in here.

It occurs to me that I have a 5:45am flight on Friday morning. Just the thought of that makes me groan. Loudly. But the dread of waking up at 3:30ish is short lived because my destination is to visit one of my bestest friends and her sweet hubs. We are gonna get makeovers (well, not the hubs) and go to the amusement park and ride roller coasters and exercise together and eat junk and shop and go to the pool and go out on the town and laugh ourselves silly. I can’t wait!

And now, I crash.

sunburn and a pogo stick

8 Mar

Today was rad.

I took kiddo to the zoo for a date with her bestie and her mom, and then to her friend’s house for lunch and playtime. My friend Phil, grilled for us and then there was tree climbing, hide and go seeking, Disney soundtracking, doughnut eating, rope swinging, bike riding, hula hooping, and pogo stick jumping. I’m not sure what the kids were doing during all of this. Ha ha. I keed I keed. Although I did try the pogo stick. Not as fun as it looks. I was asked a couple of times if I’d like to borrow a helmet.

The only price I paid for this fun day was that I am now the proud and itchy owner of my first sunburn of the year. On my chest. There’s even a nice pale white circle where my medallion necklace was. Super cute I tell ya. But I can’t really complain because the weather was phenomenal. Perfect in every way. I’m hoping for more of the same tomorrow! Minus the pogo stick.

mish mash

15 Feb

Whew, it’s only Saturday afternoon and this weekend has exhausted me already. In all good ways though.

On the job search front…I applied for what looks like an amazing position and got a very positive response the next afternoon. The HR representative said they were interested in talking to me about it and she sent me an official application to fill out and asked for my references. I have the paperwork all ready to scan and email back to her tomorrow. I don’t want to get my hopes up but this looks promising and I am crossing my fingers for an interview with them very soon. In the meantime, I continue to look and apply. Something great is going to happen. I just know it.

Cuban Black Beans and RiceFriday I stayed home and did housework stuff and made a Cuban black beans and rice dish in the lazy cook’s favorite appliance, the ever amazing crock pot. It turned out really yummy and I’ll definitely make it again. I’ll try a new vegetarian crock pot dish next week. This seems to be my new thing.

That evening, Valentine’s Day exploded all over the kitchen. Kiddo had a great day with Valentines 2014school parties and such, and hubs and I had one of our sweetest and best V-Day’s ever, right here at home. Although I think I have made an unfortunate discovery…I am about 75% sure that chocolate is causing me some headaches. I know chocolate is a headache trigger for some people but I had hoped the Universe would never be so evil as to curse me with this particular malady, given that chocolate is one of my main food groups. I assure you that I will continue to test this theory in the name of science and will keep you posted.

That night I tried my best to go to bed early because I had to be up by 5:30 to get downtown to do a 5K with some friends. So of course, knowing that I needed to get rest psyched me out and I didn’t sleep worth a dern. But I still Hot Chocolate 5K Feb2014managed to get up and ready in time to meet mah peeps and get to my designated corral. I think I’ve mentioned a few posts ago that I haven’t ran in months so this race was strictly for the social aspects alone. Oh, and the hot chocolate of course since it was the Hot Chocolate 5K/15K after all. Here are a few pics from the grand event, minus my friend Nat who left early afterwards and another friend who bailed altogether because of the cold. Boo. But y’all it was COLD. So very cold. I walked a bit and jogged a bit more. I was on track to get a better time than expected until the hill from hell rose up in front of me and it was a long one. Hello glutes workout. I was huffing and puffing up that crazy hill and spotted my friend Leland coming to join me. He’d finished already and had come back to pull me to the end. It really did help a lot too and I ran the rest of the way. My time still sucked mind you but I didn’t care. That’s what happens when you don’t train. There was, as the name promised, hot chocolate at the finish line and chocolate fondue even! Yes, I now have a headache but it was worth it. Hot Chocolate 5K Feb2014a

Still on the running and racing topic, every time I do a race I get re-jazzed and want to sign up for another one. If I could just be consistent with training, I know I could kill some finish time goals and get some PRs. Maybe with the warmer weather and spring coming up (if that ever happens) I will be motivated to get out there more.

Happy weekend and here’s to ushering in springtime a little bit faster!

It’s spring fever.  That is what the name of it is.  And when you’ve got it, you want – oh, you don’t quite know what it is you do want, but it just fairly makes your heart ache, you want it so!  ~Mark Twain

 

 

Long morning ride

29 Sep

092813_Bike_RideI got 21 miles in this morning on Trekster. It felt amazing. Perfect weather, perfect scenery. The only thing that wasn’t perfect was my sore tailbone but that’s a small price to pay for cheap therapy.

Speaking of therapy (am I awesome at segues or what?), mine went well the other day. I’m feeling better after, as well as thanks to some great friends I’ve been able to hang out with lately. I always seem to come out of those black periods and be ok until the next one hits. So I’ll ride this wave as long as I can. Its all I can do.

Dr. B asked me some great questions, which I couldn’t answer definitively at the time but they sure gave my brain a workout thinking about them. One was “what are you getting out of x situation?” and another was “Do you really like running?” She meant literally running by the way. Many times I try to force myself into being (or trying to be) something that I’m not, but I try to put a round peg in a square hole because that’s what I think I SHOULD do. She also told me that someone was talking to her about Burning Man the other day and she immediately thought of me. It has always been on my bucket list and she strongly recommended that I look into it and/or other festivals and events like it and participate in one within the next six months. It does seem an appropriate compromise to abandoning ship and running away to Timbuktu eh?

And I didn’t mean for this post to turn into a self analysis. To sleep for me.

Ciao.

 

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