I posted this on Facebook today but wanted it here as well. A good portion of my job is to be on Facebook and social media in general. Otherwise, I would find right now a good time to take a break, and I think it will serve me well to go ahead and limit the amount of time spent on my personal account going forward … Continue reading What is Happening?
My latest therapy session was a good one. We spent a lot of time talking about simply wanting to feel better and using that as motivation rather than relying on a number on the scale or the size of my pants to dictate my mood. I’m feeling all of my 42 years plus about 10 more these days. I shouldn’t struggle so much to get … Continue reading Therapy: On Feeling Better
Sometimes you’re in the middle of folding laundry and are watching Abstract: The Art of Design on Netflix at the same time and thinking about how you’ve been in this really weird frustrating place for the past several days. It’s a place you find yourself over and over again, probably once every couple of months at a minimum. It’s restlessness to the extreme, but restlessness … Continue reading the place
…has already had quite a few ups and downs. The Ups My dad’s store moved to a new location and it is pretty amazing. Nicer and newer with better parking and facilities. It’s been a stressful time for him but I think things are finally settling down and falling into place. Hubs had some big/positive things happen at his work that are in his/our favor. … Continue reading 2016 so far
I thought since last night’s walk was so pain free and relatively easy that this morning’s bike ride would be the same. Um, no. Apparently my legs are still in rebellion mode because those 6 miles were more than a bit lackluster. There is one TINY hill on this route and I was struggling to get up it. But it still felt good to be … Continue reading morning ride and the state of my brain
Emotional rollercoaster today. It’s not something I can explain here. Its just…all the things. Bleh. Life is weird. As mentioned in the title, it’s an ungodly hour and momma is up pacing, nervous as a cat. #1stdayofkindgergarten Last day of daycare today for kiddo. Teary pickup. Last long commute home with her. Not so teary, for me anyway as kiddo was in a mood. Probably … Continue reading various thoughts at 3 am
I was reading something the other day that stuck in my brain and made me want to “write it out”. What’s that saying about never letting anyone determine your self worth? Something like that. I make mistakes. Sometimes the same ones repeatedly. And there are times that I feel like I have imparted grace to others in multiple instances but don’t get that same consideration … Continue reading funny and serious
Because you care. I decided to give the foot another day off. Plus, I’m scared I will go crazy if I run on it and it acts ugly so I’m delaying expected disappointment. Such a great attitude I have, I know. Anyway, the gym was good for me as it always is. Mind clearing and blood pumping and stress reducing. Good stuff! Tonight…an attempted run … Continue reading Yesterday’s workout
So, we entered Pathetic Town on the run today. It didn’t start off well, nor did it end well either. I had downloaded my intervals onto the Garmin, got dressed, grabbed my gear, got to the greenway and realized that I’d forgotten….the Garmin. No biggie, I have Runkeeper on my phone. Yay for backup plans. I felt sluggish and not into it at all and … Continue reading dud of a run
Texts this morning from yet another friend who is struggling for different reasons. Sometimes people are incredibly mean, closed minded, and heartless in their well-meaning-ness, if that makes any sense. I know life is difficult and there are struggles to be had. Its not all peachy keen, hunky dory, sunshine, rainbows, and unicorns, but I really don’t think it should be THIS hard for some … Continue reading this is why i’m in therapy folks
I’m on a short fuse today for one reason or another. Its Sunday, so by this time every weekend I’ve responded to 20 gazillion calls of “mommy mommy” and my patience is taxed. I know that I am kiddo’s whole world at this stage in her life so I try to keep perspective and channel my inner Zen. Its just….eh, whatever. Moving on. People really … Continue reading Testy
It has not been the best of weekends. Kiddo got violently ill on the way home Thursday, requiring an impromptu pit stop along the interstate to clean her up best I could and get home asap. It was gross and pitiful and made me cry when she stared at me with her little lip quivering and said “mommy, will you take care of me?”. I … Continue reading staring
you know that feeling when you know you should go to bed because its really late but you don’t want to because your mind is whirling and you can’t shut your brain off, plus you’re not really sleepy and are just in that dreamy state of mind where random bizarre thoughts pop into your head and you are really considering driving to the airport and … Continue reading
So yeah, we’ve been on vacation for several days and are just now getting back into the routine of real life. Sort of. We had a great time at the beach (pictures forthcoming if I can ever get them all downloaded). Kiddo really made great process with her swimming and got braver with each day. She had a blast and couldn’t wait to get to … Continue reading mommy stuff
Thank you for sending me this. However, I am in fact, NOT “bored with my routine”, as you so helpfully suggested. You see, I no longer have a routine, unless you count lots of sleeping, cupcakes, and mentally tripping the senders of these relentless running emails as they walk down stairs. So by all means, please, I insist, have a handful of Whoppers and some … Continue reading Dear Runkeeper,
At this very moment I am “stealing” wi-fi from my local Sonic. These days its good business to ask “would you like free wi-fi with your tater tots”. To be fair, I did buy food here (which I regret now but tomorrow is another day, another pound, so whatever). Kiddo would not take a nap today and I was going stir crazy which translates to … Continue reading in which i tell you what’s up
So now I have food poisoning or some sort of bacteria infection according to the doctor’s best guess. The night of The Stress Fracture Debacle I did the head in the toilet thing for a bit. I thought I had just stressed myself to the point of illness but then other things began to occur (I will spare you the details) and The Accountant really … Continue reading I can’t make this stuff up
Hi. 3am, kiddo just woke me up to go pee. Small victories. However, if she is still doing this when she is 10 I will claw my eyes out. This guy has weird eyes on HouseHunters. They are like crossed but not really. I can’t stop staring so I’m glad he can’t see me. Christmas was great and if I were a proper mommy blogger … Continue reading I’ve already seen/saw/whatever this HouseHunters episode
As with most things, I go through cycles with this blogging thing. I don’t think I’ll ever delete this space on the interwebs but I’m over feeling guilty for not appearing here every couple of days or trying to define what category this place fits into. It is whatever I want it to be, everything or nothing, doesn’t matter. Right this second, I’m going to … Continue reading blogging is weird
Very rough morning today. I was already on edge from some other things going on. On edge, as in I lay in bed for 45 minutes willing some sort of rip in the fabric of the universe to happen so that I wouldn’t have to get up. On edge, as in I didn’t shower this morning and am wearing the same jeans that I had on … Continue reading reframing the day*
Long post deleted. Sometimes Dilbert says it best. Continue reading today
For the first time in several days, I met my supafly workout buddy and we went to the gym this morning. My workout was “meh” at best but at least I was there. I think we might try to switch some things up because I for one, am kind of loosing my gym-mojo. Maybe late evening work outs instead of butt-crack-of-dawn ones? Shall I don my Flashdance sweatshirt and … Continue reading zzzzz
