I posted this on Facebook today but wanted it here as well. A good portion of my job is to be on Facebook and social media in general. Otherwise, I would find right now a good time to take a break, and I think it will serve me well to go ahead and limit the... Continue Reading →
Therapy: On Feeling Better
My latest therapy session was a good one. We spent a lot of time talking about simply wanting to feel better and using that as motivation rather than relying on a number on the scale or the size of my pants to dictate my mood. I'm feeling all of my 42 years plus about 10... Continue Reading →
the place
Sometimes you're in the middle of folding laundry and are watching Abstract: The Art of Design on Netflix at the same time and thinking about how you've been in this really weird frustrating place for the past several days. It's a place you find yourself over and over again, probably once every couple of months... Continue Reading →
2016 so far
...has already had quite a few ups and downs. The Ups My dad's store moved to a new location and it is pretty amazing. Nicer and newer with better parking and facilities. It's been a stressful time for him but I think things are finally settling down and falling into place. Hubs had some big/positive... Continue Reading →
morning ride and the state of my brain
I thought since last night's walk was so pain free and relatively easy that this morning's bike ride would be the same. Um, no. Apparently my legs are still in rebellion mode because those 6 miles were more than a bit lackluster. There is one TINY hill on this route and I was struggling to... Continue Reading →
various thoughts at 3 am
Emotional rollercoaster today. It's not something I can explain here. Its just...all the things. Bleh. Life is weird. As mentioned in the title, it's an ungodly hour and momma is up pacing, nervous as a cat. #1stdayofkindgergarten Last day of daycare today for kiddo. Teary pickup. Last long commute home with her. Not so teary,... Continue Reading →
funny and serious
I was reading something the other day that stuck in my brain and made me want to "write it out". What's that saying about never letting anyone determine your self worth? Something like that. I make mistakes. Sometimes the same ones repeatedly. And there are times that I feel like I have imparted grace to... Continue Reading →
Yesterday’s workout
Because you care. I decided to give the foot another day off. Plus, I'm scared I will go crazy if I run on it and it acts ugly so I'm delaying expected disappointment. Such a great attitude I have, I know. Anyway, the gym was good for me as it always is. Mind clearing and... Continue Reading →
dud of a run
So, we entered Pathetic Town on the run today. It didn't start off well, nor did it end well either. I had downloaded my intervals onto the Garmin, got dressed, grabbed my gear, got to the greenway and realized that I'd forgotten....the Garmin. No biggie, I have Runkeeper on my phone. Yay for backup plans.... Continue Reading →
this is why i’m in therapy folks
Texts this morning from yet another friend who is struggling for different reasons. Sometimes people are incredibly mean, closed minded, and heartless in their well-meaning-ness, if that makes any sense. I know life is difficult and there are struggles to be had. Its not all peachy keen, hunky dory, sunshine, rainbows, and unicorns, but I... Continue Reading →
Testy
I'm on a short fuse today for one reason or another. Its Sunday, so by this time every weekend I've responded to 20 gazillion calls of "mommy mommy" and my patience is taxed. I know that I am kiddo's whole world at this stage in her life so I try to keep perspective and channel... Continue Reading →
staring
It has not been the best of weekends. Kiddo got violently ill on the way home Thursday, requiring an impromptu pit stop along the interstate to clean her up best I could and get home asap. It was gross and pitiful and made me cry when she stared at me with her little lip quivering... Continue Reading →
you know that feeling when you know you should go to bed because its really late but you don't want to because your mind is whirling and you can't shut your brain off, plus you're not really sleepy and are just in that dreamy state of mind where random bizarre thoughts pop into your head... Continue Reading →
mommy stuff
So yeah, we've been on vacation for several days and are just now getting back into the routine of real life. Sort of. We had a great time at the beach (pictures forthcoming if I can ever get them all downloaded). Kiddo really made great process with her swimming and got braver with each day.... Continue Reading →
Dear Runkeeper,
Thank you for sending me this. However, I am in fact, NOT "bored with my routine", as you so helpfully suggested. You see, I no longer have a routine, unless you count lots of sleeping, cupcakes, and mentally tripping the senders of these relentless running emails as they walk down stairs. So by all means,... Continue Reading →
in which i tell you what’s up
At this very moment I am "stealing" wi-fi from my local Sonic. These days its good business to ask "would you like free wi-fi with your tater tots". To be fair, I did buy food here (which I regret now but tomorrow is another day, another pound, so whatever). Kiddo would not take a nap... Continue Reading →
I can’t make this stuff up
So now I have food poisoning or some sort of bacteria infection according to the doctor's best guess. The night of The Stress Fracture Debacle I did the head in the toilet thing for a bit. I thought I had just stressed myself to the point of illness but then other things began to occur... Continue Reading →
I’ve already seen/saw/whatever this HouseHunters episode
Hi. 3am, kiddo just woke me up to go pee. Small victories. However, if she is still doing this when she is 10 I will claw my eyes out. This guy has weird eyes on HouseHunters. They are like crossed but not really. I can't stop staring so I'm glad he can't see me. Christmas... Continue Reading →
blogging is weird
As with most things, I go through cycles with this blogging thing. I don't think I'll ever delete this space on the interwebs but I'm over feeling guilty for not appearing here every couple of days or trying to define what category this place fits into. It is whatever I want it to be, everything... Continue Reading →
reframing the day*
Very rough morning today. I was already on edge from some other things going on. On edge, as in I lay in bed for 45 minutes willing some sort of rip in the fabric of the universe to happen so that I wouldn't have to get up. On edge, as in I didn't shower this morning... Continue Reading →
today
Long post deleted. Sometimes Dilbert says it best.
zzzzz
For the first time in several days, I met my supafly workout buddy and we went to the gym this morning. My workout was "meh" at best but at least I was there. I think we might try to switch some things up because I for one, am kind of loosing my gym-mojo. Maybe late evening work outs instead... Continue Reading →