This was originally published on Girl Go Glow, but I wanted it to live here, too. The timing is right to post it tonight. I let my meds lapse and have been trying to hold it together mentally for the past couple of weeks until I can get back to the doctor on Tuesday for a new prescription. I did what you should never do … Continue reading Sometimes I’m Sad Panda
My latest therapy session was a good one. We spent a lot of time talking about simply wanting to feel better and using that as motivation rather than relying on a number on the scale or the size of my pants to dictate my mood. I’m feeling all of my 42 years plus about 10 more these days. I shouldn’t struggle so much to get … Continue reading Therapy: On Feeling Better
I can breathe for the first time…Just kidding. After about a year’s absence I kinda just have to start over here. Here are the major highlights: I started a new job! 🙂 Our dog died. 😦 I restarted and then quit grad school. Again. 😦 I’ve gained about 20 pounds. 😦 One out of four is not great, I realize. But the steady stream of … Continue reading Since You’ve Been Gone
My friends are sick. Two of them, from completely different circles in my life. I am what they have in common. That, and cancer. Bone cancer, breast cancer. They want to take my friend’s jaw completely off. They’ve already taken part of my friend’s breast. A singer’s jaw. A mother’s breast. Life is full of shitty irony. I’m watching them break down but I do … Continue reading when your friends have cancer
…has already had quite a few ups and downs. The Ups My dad’s store moved to a new location and it is pretty amazing. Nicer and newer with better parking and facilities. It’s been a stressful time for him but I think things are finally settling down and falling into place. Hubs had some big/positive things happen at his work that are in his/our favor. … Continue reading 2016 so far
I have that Adele song stuck on repeat in my head. It’s 4:00 am and I’ve been up for a bit. Kiddo has a cold and is snot breathing and gritting her teeth. As she is in my bed tonight, you can understand why I’m not sleeping well. Poor kid though. I know she feels crappy. I got up and tried to make her blow … Continue reading Hello
I’ve obviously missed a few days of posting so am just going to combine things here to catch up. Never fear for I am still on track y’all. Day 3 was a cross training day so I did some weights and hopped on the bike at the gym. Day 4 was a rest day and I totally nailed that one. Day 5 I actually missed … Continue reading Days 3, 4, 5, and 6
Good news. I got a killer haircut and color today. Also, I’m back to my normal level of crazy vs. bedridden crazy. The darkness ran its course and is in the background until next time. That’s just the nature of it. My entire body is sore though and I feel stiff and creaky. I think mostly from doing a lot of walking at work in … Continue reading yo yo, etc
Sick. I really wish someone would bring me some warm gooey chocolate chip cookies today. I’m home sick with a fever, cough, etc etc and I say screw the chicken noodle soup, cookies are where its at. Anyway, mutter mutter growl. At least I should be over it in plenty of time to enjoy the holidays. Bright spot. Ugly. The news these days y’all. People … Continue reading miscellany
Being a parent is THE most stressful thing. And I have it easy. One kid. No major health issues. Normal behavior. Easy peasy. Yet still THE most stressful thing. I must be a complete wuss or something. Kiddo had a tummy bug a couple of weekends ago. She recovered in a couple of days but seems to complain of her stomach hurting on a very … Continue reading breathe momma breathe
The work-week ended on a pretty positive note. The two meetings giving me ants in mah pants both turned out well enough. I went to an information session for Doctors Without Borders on Thursday. That was eye-opening and a great perspective check. They do such amazing work and shared many photos and stories from different missions. I was later irritated when someone told me they … Continue reading Sunday, 11/09/14
The question of the day is why is it easier to be kind to others (to an extent, ha-ha) but more difficult to treat yourself as kindly? My therapist has used the example of comparing how I talk to my child vs. how I talk to myself. I can’t fault her point because I would never dream of speaking to my kid like I speak … Continue reading being kind to self
Mother Nature can for real bite me. Kiddo’s school opens two hours late tomorrow but it wouldn’t surprise me if they cancel it altogether before morning. It is raining out there after all. I always roll my eyes at people yakking on and on about the weather but when you were just in short sleeves 24 hours ago and now school is out because of … Continue reading weather is stupid, sickly kid, weekend highlights, drugs are bad
Today’s doctor visit was very, anticlimactic, to say the least. I got a lot of “hmmm”s and “I see”s. And then he gave me some random sample meds to try, said “good luck with that” and sent me on my way. Thank you Dr. Decisive. I got a nice nap in today and then took kiddo to get her flu mist. That was a stressful … Continue reading mah friday
So this eating thing is not going so well. Since Friday night (that’s approximately 4 and a half days ago) I have had one can of Chicken Noodle Soup, a handful of pretzels and saltines, part of a frozen Smart Ones, and a portion of a Zaxby’s combo meal. That is it. I am living off of water and Sprite and fat reserves, of which … Continue reading food is not my friend
Its after midnight and I should be sleeping. But its a full blue moon and my brain is whirling. Today was busy and somewhat annoying but it ended better than it began I guess. I started off weepy and weird and missing a friend and worrying about some very serious family health issues. I’m still all of those things but I don’t have control over … Continue reading i should be sleeping
Maybe its the rainy dreary weather but I woke up this morning feeling defeated before I even got out of bed. My throat is feeling sore and I have that “about to get sick” feeling. Impeccable timing as we have a babysitter all weekend and The Accountant and I are staying in the big city for a rare kid free couple of days. That was … Continue reading sad sick panda
I’m not going to say “time flies” because I hate it when people say that. It doesn’t fly, it passes at a constant rate. Its your perception of events within that time that make it seem to “fly”. But whatever. So, August 1. Like most other days, although made much nicer by lunch at a favorite hole in the wall joint with a friend who … Continue reading Hiya August
So, we entered Pathetic Town on the run today. It didn’t start off well, nor did it end well either. I had downloaded my intervals onto the Garmin, got dressed, grabbed my gear, got to the greenway and realized that I’d forgotten….the Garmin. No biggie, I have Runkeeper on my phone. Yay for backup plans. I felt sluggish and not into it at all and … Continue reading dud of a run
No workout tonight. My head is splitting. Pain. I’m guessing a combo of being a girl (yay, lucky me, men are stupid*, don’t look at me in that tone of voice, etc), and the fact that I ate weirdly and non-healthily today. And did I mention the cramps? TMI? Oh, I’m sorry but this is my blog and I’ll talk about my female issues if … Continue reading head meet ache meet perspective
I’ve rested my foot for the past three days. Two of those days I rested completely and cross-trained on the other one. Today it was time to get back out there. I walked the dog first and got in a 1.4 mile warm up. Then ran/walked 3.4 more miles. It wasn’t pretty. I got through most of it but my body and brain shut down … Continue reading body betrayed
Because I win at life lately, I just spilled a bunch of tea inside the refrigerator and on the floor. Even better, I dropped a glass and it shattered into a million shards of feet shredding danger bits all over the tile floor. I vacuumed but shoes would be a good idea in the kitchen until I can mop and re-vacuum tomorrow. Thought you should … Continue reading cue annie lenoxx broken glass song
So far so good on the 1/2 training. Mostly. I was pumped to run outside last night but by the time I was free to do so, it was pouring rain and lightning. I will run in the rain no problem, but lightning is another bear. So to the gym I went and got in 3.8 miles on the treadmill, 5 min running/1 min walking … Continue reading bodies break
I’ve lost six pounds in the past few weeks. I’m calling that a win. The fact that its stress related and I haven’t been eating much is not exactly a win but whatever. And I just saw a tweet about Taco Bell so now I am DYING for Taco Bell. Luckily, it’s quite a jaunt to the nearest one and I’m broke anyway. Lean Cuisine … Continue reading can i put “eats weird things” on my resume?
So, I’m like the poster child for testing new antidepressants. Bah. I went to the doctor today about some issues with my current ones so we are switching again. Bah. It’s not as bad as it sounds I guess. This is only my 4th kind over many years. That’s not too awful right? Bah. Do you read those informational papers that come with all medications? … Continue reading check your ambition at the door
