Since You’ve Been Gone

I can breathe for the first time…Just kidding. After about a year’s absence I kinda just have to start over here. Here are the major highlights: I started a new job! 🙂 Our dog died. 😦 I restarted and then quit grad school. Again. 😦 I’ve gained about 20 pounds. 😦 One out of four is not great, I realize. But the steady stream of … Continue reading Since You’ve Been Gone

the place

Sometimes you’re in the middle of folding laundry and are watching Abstract: The Art of Design on Netflix at the same time and thinking about how you’ve been in this really weird frustrating place for the past several days. It’s a place you find yourself over and over again, probably once every couple of months at a minimum. It’s restlessness to the extreme, but restlessness … Continue reading the place

managing time

My time management skills are the pits. As are my organizational skills, which I feel would be much better if my time management skills were better. Or maybe it’s the other way around? Which came first, the organized Finn or the efficient Finn? Half the time I feel like I’m barely keeping it together without losing my mind, giving up, and just crawling under the … Continue reading managing time

2016 so far

…has already had quite a few ups and downs. The Ups My dad’s store moved to a new location and it is pretty amazing. Nicer and newer with better parking and facilities. It’s been a stressful time for him but I think things are finally settling down and falling into place. Hubs had some big/positive things happen at his work that are in his/our favor. … Continue reading 2016 so far

unsure

Random…Here’s a photo I took of a llama…Or an alpaca…Some sort of camelid anyway. I think he/she is pretty cool…yep, so very random. This blog y’all…I neglect it for long periods of time because I get confused about what to do with it…what I want it to be…how I want to frame things here. And then I think too much, get overwhelmed and ignore it. … Continue reading unsure

yeah, its been a minute…

…but people keep dying and getting sick on me. Since my last post two more grandmothers have passed, this time on The Accountant’s side, and also within a few days of each other. Its been sad and exhausting. Four deaths within less than three months…too much. Kiddo has been sick with a stomach virus, then I got it and still have it, and now I … Continue reading yeah, its been a minute…

morning ride and the state of my brain

I thought since last night’s walk was so pain free and relatively easy that this morning’s bike ride would be the same. Um, no. Apparently my legs are still in rebellion mode because those 6 miles were more than a bit lackluster. There is one TINY hill on this route and I was struggling to get up it. But it still felt good to be … Continue reading morning ride and the state of my brain

tally ho

I’ve decided to walk (jog some maybe) the 1/2 marathon on Saturday. Because not doing it will make me feel worse than doing it even though walking was not how I wanted this to go down. Bomb threat at my workplace today. Fabulous. Disney on Ice requires post event therapy. My kid was a total brat during most of it. Huge presentation tomorrow at ye … Continue reading tally ho

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Just a quick check in as its been a few days since I’ve posted. My grandmother passed away a few days ago so its been a difficult week. A difficult couple of weeks actually. I want to post about her. Soon. Besides attending funerals, life is also otherwise busy. I have an old school planner that I use to semi-organize my life. Which basically means … Continue reading placeholder

i should be sleeping

Its after midnight and I should be sleeping. But its a full blue moon and my brain is whirling. Today was busy and somewhat annoying but it ended better than it began I guess. I started off weepy and weird and missing a friend and worrying about some very serious family health issues. I’m still all of those things but I don’t have control over … Continue reading i should be sleeping

various thoughts at 3 am

Emotional rollercoaster today. It’s not something I can explain here. Its just…all the things. Bleh. Life is weird. As mentioned in the title, it’s an ungodly hour and momma is up pacing, nervous as a cat. #1stdayofkindgergarten Last day of daycare today for kiddo. Teary pickup. Last long commute home with her. Not so teary, for me anyway as kiddo was in a mood. Probably … Continue reading various thoughts at 3 am

funny and serious

I was reading something the other day that stuck in my brain and made me want to “write it out”. What’s that saying about never letting anyone determine your self worth? Something like that. I make mistakes. Sometimes the same ones repeatedly. And there are times that I feel like I have imparted grace to others in multiple instances but don’t get that same consideration … Continue reading funny and serious

this is why i’m in therapy folks

Texts this morning from yet another friend who is struggling for different reasons. Sometimes people are incredibly mean, closed minded, and heartless in their well-meaning-ness, if that makes any sense. I know life is difficult and there are struggles to be had. Its not all peachy keen, hunky dory, sunshine, rainbows, and unicorns, but I really don’t think it should be THIS hard for some … Continue reading this is why i’m in therapy folks

shrinkage…

…of the head. Therapy of the mental sort continues once or twice a month. I just got back from today’s session. I started about a year ago this April. It has been both helpful and confusing and disturbing and unsettling and amazing. The benefits and enlightenment that comes from being able to talk to a neutral party about anything without fear of judgement, being the … Continue reading shrinkage…

trumping tiffany’s

So, today….the first day of 2013. Quiet day with kiddo and The Accountant, for the most part. I got a nice run/walk in this morning before the rain, kiddo and I went to Target for miscellany and then to Jersey Mike’s for sandwiches. I went to a movie by myself. The movie was pretty bad but the alone time was quite nice. The Accountant watched … Continue reading trumping tiffany’s

you know that feeling when you know you should go to bed because its really late but you don’t want to because your mind is whirling and you can’t shut your brain off, plus you’re not really sleepy and are just in that dreamy state of mind where random bizarre thoughts pop into your head and you are really considering driving to the airport and … Continue reading

paranoia and good things

I am the champion of all things paranoid. Or something like that. Life is really good right now and I sometimes feel like I’m teetering on a tower of blessings and good things that will sooner or later, topple to the ground when something bad happens to disturb it. And I wonder if I’m jinxing it by even writing this. See? Paranoid. I am enjoying … Continue reading paranoia and good things