Sometimes you’re in the middle of folding laundry and are watching Abstract: The Art of Design on Netflix at the same time and thinking about how you’ve been in this really weird frustrating place for the past several days. It’s a place you find yourself over and over again, probably once every couple of months at a minimum. It’s restlessness to the extreme, but restlessness … Continue reading the place
…has already had quite a few ups and downs. The Ups My dad’s store moved to a new location and it is pretty amazing. Nicer and newer with better parking and facilities. It’s been a stressful time for him but I think things are finally settling down and falling into place. Hubs had some big/positive things happen at his work that are in his/our favor. … Continue reading 2016 so far
…my body that is. And brain too, I suppose. Feeling good lately with better food choices and consistent work outs at the gym and walking/jogging outside. The weather is supposed to be icky this week so I’ve tried to take advantage of the good stuff while I can and have been getting my walks done outside before I have to resort to the treadmill. My … Continue reading moving…
I thought since last night’s walk was so pain free and relatively easy that this morning’s bike ride would be the same. Um, no. Apparently my legs are still in rebellion mode because those 6 miles were more than a bit lackluster. There is one TINY hill on this route and I was struggling to get up it. But it still felt good to be … Continue reading morning ride and the state of my brain
I was reading something the other day that stuck in my brain and made me want to “write it out”. What’s that saying about never letting anyone determine your self worth? Something like that. I make mistakes. Sometimes the same ones repeatedly. And there are times that I feel like I have imparted grace to others in multiple instances but don’t get that same consideration … Continue reading funny and serious
Texts this morning from yet another friend who is struggling for different reasons. Sometimes people are incredibly mean, closed minded, and heartless in their well-meaning-ness, if that makes any sense. I know life is difficult and there are struggles to be had. Its not all peachy keen, hunky dory, sunshine, rainbows, and unicorns, but I really don’t think it should be THIS hard for some … Continue reading this is why i’m in therapy folks
…of the head. Therapy of the mental sort continues once or twice a month. I just got back from today’s session. I started about a year ago this April. It has been both helpful and confusing and disturbing and unsettling and amazing. The benefits and enlightenment that comes from being able to talk to a neutral party about anything without fear of judgement, being the … Continue reading shrinkage…
It has not been the best of weekends. Kiddo got violently ill on the way home Thursday, requiring an impromptu pit stop along the interstate to clean her up best I could and get home asap. It was gross and pitiful and made me cry when she stared at me with her little lip quivering and said “mommy, will you take care of me?”. I … Continue reading staring
I am the champion of all things paranoid. Or something like that. Life is really good right now and I sometimes feel like I’m teetering on a tower of blessings and good things that will sooner or later, topple to the ground when something bad happens to disturb it. And I wonder if I’m jinxing it by even writing this. See? Paranoid. I am enjoying … Continue reading paranoia and good things
I love to watch people. No one is as they seem. The news of Wade Belak’s apparent suicide this week reminds me of that simple and yet very complex fact. From all appearances a happy-go-lucky guy with a beautiful family, great career, the whole nine. And yet, some people just have demons that no one can fathom until something like this happens and we are … Continue reading people watching
This morning I heard myself yell up the stairs to kiddo as she skittered away from me to avoid putting on her socks like I’d told her to multiple times. “You are fixin’ to get a time out young lady!!!!” Yes, I said “fixin” just like that, without the g, and I added in a stern “YOUNG LADY” for shock value. I cringed inside as … Continue reading where did i go?
How you doin? I am, as per usual, as behind as ever. I owe emails to a few, need to work on a website, read a book and fifty blogs, write some letters, lose 20 pounds, organize my closet and dresser, yada yada yada. I envy all of you super organized people out there (you know who you are, don’t be shy). I swear if I could change … Continue reading these are not new years resolutions
this person can walk into a room and suck the life right out of it. if i happen to be in a good mood, she kills it instantly. and the thing is, i shouldn’t let someone else have such an effect on my day. but this person, she is poison. and frankly she needs several things. a good ass kicking and some valium for starters. but … Continue reading in an instant
It’s almost midnight on a work night and I know I should be in bed. Tomorrow is well, tomorrow, and I will stumble through it in what has come to be my normal zombie-like state. I’m having trouble getting to bed before this time lately. I just feel like this time of night is the only time I get time for me to be alone, … Continue reading down time
(I found this post in my Drafts and am publishing it now, after adding to.) Sometimes I just want to peer over my glasses at people and give them the evil eye for acting inconsiderate, or closed minded, or selfish, or just plain stupid. And sometimes I do just that, under the guise of looking intelligent. But the truth is, if I ever do that peering thing at you, … Continue reading this was a draft but now its not
Sometimes I think the Universe is playing a sick joke on me. Either that, or there’s been an epic mistake. That I wasn’t meant to be this person, with this life. That somehow, there’s been a terrible mix-up and I’m someone else who is trapped in this body, this place in time, at this spot on the map. I don’t know that I was meant to be … Continue reading me again, being all deep & stuff
Life is messed up. Generally speaking. Things don’t make sense, get all crazy, aren’t logical and sure as hell aren’t black and white. Sometimes I think I will never figure things out. Never figure out what I’m supposed to be doing here, what I want to do here. I envy those people who know what they want and just go do it without overthinking things. Or … Continue reading well here we are but where is that?
I love Emily Dickinson. Love her. I was perusing some of her poems today and yep, I definitely love her. She was an intriquing little bird it seems. I like how she sort of shunned society. I wanna do that many days. Today being one of them. Anyway, I bet she was cool. I’m nobody! Who are you? Are you nobody, too? Then there’s a … Continue reading whatever i want
