My time management skills are the pits. As are my organizational skills, which I feel would be much better if my time management skills were better. Or maybe it’s the other way around? Which came first, the organized Finn or the efficient Finn? Half the time I feel like I’m barely keeping it together without losing my mind, giving up, and just crawling under the … Continue reading managing time
I thought since last night’s walk was so pain free and relatively easy that this morning’s bike ride would be the same. Um, no. Apparently my legs are still in rebellion mode because those 6 miles were more than a bit lackluster. There is one TINY hill on this route and I was struggling to get up it. But it still felt good to be … Continue reading morning ride and the state of my brain
I was reading something the other day that stuck in my brain and made me want to “write it out”. What’s that saying about never letting anyone determine your self worth? Something like that. I make mistakes. Sometimes the same ones repeatedly. And there are times that I feel like I have imparted grace to others in multiple instances but don’t get that same consideration … Continue reading funny and serious
Texts this morning from yet another friend who is struggling for different reasons. Sometimes people are incredibly mean, closed minded, and heartless in their well-meaning-ness, if that makes any sense. I know life is difficult and there are struggles to be had. Its not all peachy keen, hunky dory, sunshine, rainbows, and unicorns, but I really don’t think it should be THIS hard for some … Continue reading this is why i’m in therapy folks
3:00 AM seems to be my time. My time to what, I don”t know exactly, just “my time”. I didn’t mean to fall asleep on kiddo’s floor (yet again) but here I am. Eating Honey Nut Cheerios from the box and struggling to remember my WordPress password because I don’t log in as much as I used to. I remembered it, obs. And dang, I … Continue reading too much
you know that feeling when you know you should go to bed because its really late but you don’t want to because your mind is whirling and you can’t shut your brain off, plus you’re not really sleepy and are just in that dreamy state of mind where random bizarre thoughts pop into your head and you are really considering driving to the airport and … Continue reading
I am the champion of all things paranoid. Or something like that. Life is really good right now and I sometimes feel like I’m teetering on a tower of blessings and good things that will sooner or later, topple to the ground when something bad happens to disturb it. And I wonder if I’m jinxing it by even writing this. See? Paranoid. I am enjoying … Continue reading paranoia and good things
I love to watch people. No one is as they seem. The news of Wade Belak’s apparent suicide this week reminds me of that simple and yet very complex fact. From all appearances a happy-go-lucky guy with a beautiful family, great career, the whole nine. And yet, some people just have demons that no one can fathom until something like this happens and we are … Continue reading people watching
This morning I heard myself yell up the stairs to kiddo as she skittered away from me to avoid putting on her socks like I’d told her to multiple times. “You are fixin’ to get a time out young lady!!!!” Yes, I said “fixin” just like that, without the g, and I added in a stern “YOUNG LADY” for shock value. I cringed inside as … Continue reading where did i go?
I think a lot. I think too much. Right now I’m thinking that the clock is stuck at 2:51 and will never move again. I think I need chocolate because that’s what I think everyday around 3pm. I think I want another tattoo but can’t decide on what or where. I think one day I’ll go to the airport and tell the ticket agent to … Continue reading think
The oddest things occur to me in that drowsy state between having answered the call of “Mooooommy” and taking the dog out. Like, how did the person who names nail polish colors get that job? Is it a random and casual process or does a lot of thought go into the monikers of Cranberry Crush and Polynesian Purple? Is it something a marketing person comes up with while standing in front of the water cooler … Continue reading its 4am and I’m wondering
this person can walk into a room and suck the life right out of it. if i happen to be in a good mood, she kills it instantly. and the thing is, i shouldn’t let someone else have such an effect on my day. but this person, she is poison. and frankly she needs several things. a good ass kicking and some valium for starters. but … Continue reading in an instant
It’s almost midnight on a work night and I know I should be in bed. Tomorrow is well, tomorrow, and I will stumble through it in what has come to be my normal zombie-like state. I’m having trouble getting to bed before this time lately. I just feel like this time of night is the only time I get time for me to be alone, … Continue reading down time
I updated my blogroll last night. I was kinda wowed and bummed at how many were defunct or had no new posts in months. Has Twitter killed the Blogger? Maybe its heading that way. With Facebook’s help of course. I know there are a gazillion blogs out there, but in my little circle of blogger buddies, the crowd seems to be thinning. It’s just an observation … Continue reading where have all the bloggers gone?
Sometimes I think the Universe is playing a sick joke on me. Either that, or there’s been an epic mistake. That I wasn’t meant to be this person, with this life. That somehow, there’s been a terrible mix-up and I’m someone else who is trapped in this body, this place in time, at this spot on the map. I don’t know that I was meant to be … Continue reading me again, being all deep & stuff
Life is messed up. Generally speaking. Things don’t make sense, get all crazy, aren’t logical and sure as hell aren’t black and white. Sometimes I think I will never figure things out. Never figure out what I’m supposed to be doing here, what I want to do here. I envy those people who know what they want and just go do it without overthinking things. Or … Continue reading well here we are but where is that?
I love Emily Dickinson. Love her. I was perusing some of her poems today and yep, I definitely love her. She was an intriquing little bird it seems. I like how she sort of shunned society. I wanna do that many days. Today being one of them. Anyway, I bet she was cool. I’m nobody! Who are you? Are you nobody, too? Then there’s a … Continue reading whatever i want
So I dunno if I like this new look or not but its different so we’re gonna roll wit it for now. Today is…a day. I sit here as usual, struggling to stay awake. Struggling to sit in front of this screen and do that thing I do day in and day out. And it makes me sad. So I escape into my brain and … Continue reading i’m thinking (take cover now)
I feel like I’m falling behind. On emails, on work, on my writing, on my fitness, on being where I want to be. On my life. I need a plan. Or a life coach. Or a life coach to help me with my plan. And it seems that no matter how much I sleep, I still wake up tired. I think I’m just tired in … Continue reading catching up and cutting out
eggo waffle shortage…not good…sam eats a waffle every day for breakfast and freaks the heck out if she doesn’t get it…creature of habit?…perhaps…i have to have my lowfat cinnamon brown sugar poptart every morning, she has to have her eggo…this could be a crisis worse than h1n1 in our house… headed to nyc on friday, yessirreebobupkins!…will probably get all kinds of lost and take all … Continue reading yo. what up?
So I know I’ve only been away a few short days, but I’ve missed my lil’ space here on the internets. Been busy with…well, honestly, I don’t even know. Nothing specific, just life stuff I guess. “Life Stuff”…that is such an indistinct term isn’t it? Anywho. Let’s see, here’s some highlights from the past few days… Had a “me day” last week. This entails taking Sam … Continue reading well haaaiiiiii bloggy blog o’ blogginess!
I went to bed early last night. Go me. I really should do this more often as I woke up a bit more rested than normal. Funny how that works. But then I woke up in somewhat of a pissy mood this morning. Maybe its the constant rain, maybe it was a frustrating conversation I had last night, or maybe it’s just me being a … Continue reading wrong side of the bed
First a random baby note: Sam can sign “hungry”, “thirsty” and “brush teeth”. It’s quite cute and quite handy. Except that she like to sign “brush teeth” a LOT. I think she’s just in love with the taste of the Elmo toothpaste. Can’t blame her, it is yummy. I’m just going to go ahead and apologize for this post. I just re-read it and visably … Continue reading this is painful, don’t even bother
This is my journal. My real journal. The kind with actual paper that you write on with a pen or pencil. The kind you hold in your hands, then slowly crack the binding and smile slightly as you blemish the first page with your favorite ink pen. That kind of journal. The romantic old fashioned REAL kind. I have a zillion of these books, most of them … Continue reading dear diary
Yep, thinking. Sometimes a dangerous thing to do at midnight when an old lady like myself should be in bed resting up for a new day. But I’m a rebel like that so here I sit, thinkin’… …about how I’m a different person than I was in high school, college and even just a couple of years ago. I guess we all constantly evolve though right? It’s … Continue reading so i was thinking