I have that Adele song stuck on repeat in my head. It's 4:00 am and I've been up for a bit. Kiddo has a cold and is snot breathing and gritting her teeth. As she is in my bed tonight, you can understand why I'm not sleeping well. Poor kid though. I know she feels... Continue Reading →
stars
The only reason I got out of bed this morning was to get my kid to school and then pick her up again this afternoon. Then I collapsed back under the blankets and willed my bed to swallow me whole. While meditation, yoga, therapy, and medication have dramatically decreased the frequency of the "episodes" I... Continue Reading →
weird energy
The best intentions... I meant to walk myself, or at least the dog when I got home from work but one thing led to another (read errands, homework, kid bedtime) and next thing I know I'm waking up next to Kiddo and it's 3:00am. I can't get back to sleep so I utilize this bizarre... Continue Reading →
stress and therapists who text
Today was super stressful. Lots to do and my head just wasn't in it. My brain was not working at all and I was struggling with concepts that should have been relatively simple. My boss probably thinks I'm a total doofus. Oh well. I powered through anyway and managed to get all the things done... Continue Reading →
various thoughts at 3 am
Emotional rollercoaster today. It's not something I can explain here. Its just...all the things. Bleh. Life is weird. As mentioned in the title, it's an ungodly hour and momma is up pacing, nervous as a cat. #1stdayofkindgergarten Last day of daycare today for kiddo. Teary pickup. Last long commute home with her. Not so teary,... Continue Reading →
weirdo beardo feardo
Its late. I just woke up feeling a bit panicky. That hasn't happened in a couple of weeks. Nothing I can't handle, just, feelings. The phrase "fake it till ya make it" popped into my head. True words. Watched a few clips from Amelie because I'm weird like that and there's something soothing to me... Continue Reading →
Monday Funday
Not really but it sorta rhymed. Here's some random stuff. I went to bed semi-early last night. Because I'm old and tired and love sleeping almost as much as chocolate. Almost. Now if I could eat chocolate WHILE sleeping, then I'd really have something. I'm having an extraordinarily bad hair day. I'm trying to grow... Continue Reading →
sleep trumps most everything
No workout or run last night and I'm ok with that. I intended to but instead fell asleep with kiddo around 9:00. Got up once to move to my own bed and slept till 6:00. This is unusual and qualifies as a restful night for me. I'll take it. Tonight however...it's on like Donkey Kong.... Continue Reading →
too much
3:00 AM seems to be my time. My time to what, I don"t know exactly, just "my time". I didn't mean to fall asleep on kiddo's floor (yet again) but here I am. Eating Honey Nut Cheerios from the box and struggling to remember my WordPress password because I don't log in as much as... Continue Reading →
wah wah wah
so i hate it when i stay up too late watching stupid pointless tv and/or staring into space (wow, it occurs to me that i do a lot of staring. hello stinkeye) and then i finally pass out in full makeup and without brushing my teeth so i wake up with my face all greasy... Continue Reading →
you know that feeling when you know you should go to bed because its really late but you don't want to because your mind is whirling and you can't shut your brain off, plus you're not really sleepy and are just in that dreamy state of mind where random bizarre thoughts pop into your head... Continue Reading →
too tired to think of a title
Easter was nice this year. Kiddo had a good one and got a nice Easter basket from the bunny dude. We didn't have any family dinners or gatherings so munchkin and I went to the park for the day and had a nice time. Today started off good and then did a bit of a... Continue Reading →
3am
Just saying hi to the internets after being woken from a sound sleep for a kiddo cover check. Like ya do. Ohmahgoodness...just remembered a dream I had...my 90 year old grandma was singing kareoke (a Heart song) at her church...so weird... Carry on about your sleeping...
1:21 am heartburn
I have a kickin' case of heartburn and can't sleep. I woke up feeling like my tongue and throat were swelling up. Weird right? So I googled side effects of my new meds and fought back the urge to call 911. Seriously people, don't try to self diagnose via the internet because it will scare... Continue Reading →
the day
Today was nice. We had our first parent-teacher conference ever. Who knew they do those for day care? Turns out, my kid is smart, sweet and socially adept. As if I didn't already know that but its nice to hear it confirmed by an outside party. Then I picked up The Mayor and we headed... Continue Reading →
sad panda goes to the doctor
Verdict: gained 10 pounds in a matter of weeks, change in meds, follow-up visit in a month, encouraged to seek therapy. Hello mid-life crisis. The next one that comes around I'm just going to buy a red sports car and be done with it. It sucks to know that the real you is so broken... Continue Reading →
these legs don’t sleep, they party
Like nursing home residents party. As in with leg cramps, aches, stiffness and joint pain. Yes, I'm up at 2 am with the new initiative, "Candy for Pee" (more on that another time, lets just call it an incentive program for nighttime potty training for now shall we?) and my soon to be 36 year... Continue Reading →
