I have that Adele song stuck on repeat in my head. It’s 4:00 am and I’ve been up for a bit. Kiddo has a cold and is snot breathing and gritting her teeth. As she is in my bed tonight, you can understand why I’m not sleeping well. Poor kid though. I know she feels crappy. I got up and tried to make her blow … Continue reading Hello
The only reason I got out of bed this morning was to get my kid to school and then pick her up again this afternoon. Then I collapsed back under the blankets and willed my bed to swallow me whole. While meditation, yoga, therapy, and medication have dramatically decreased the frequency of the “episodes” I have, there are some days when even those things are … Continue reading stars
The best intentions… I meant to walk myself, or at least the dog when I got home from work but one thing led to another (read errands, homework, kid bedtime) and next thing I know I’m waking up next to Kiddo and it’s 3:00am. I can’t get back to sleep so I utilize this bizarre surge of energy and straighten the house a bit, try … Continue reading weird energy
Today was super stressful. Lots to do and my head just wasn’t in it. My brain was not working at all and I was struggling with concepts that should have been relatively simple. My boss probably thinks I’m a total doofus. Oh well. I powered through anyway and managed to get all the things done that were required. Small victories. Hopefully I didn’t screw anything … Continue reading stress and therapists who text
Emotional rollercoaster today. It’s not something I can explain here. Its just…all the things. Bleh. Life is weird. As mentioned in the title, it’s an ungodly hour and momma is up pacing, nervous as a cat. #1stdayofkindgergarten Last day of daycare today for kiddo. Teary pickup. Last long commute home with her. Not so teary, for me anyway as kiddo was in a mood. Probably … Continue reading various thoughts at 3 am
Its late. I just woke up feeling a bit panicky. That hasn’t happened in a couple of weeks. Nothing I can’t handle, just, feelings. The phrase “fake it till ya make it” popped into my head. True words. Watched a few clips from Amelie because I’m weird like that and there’s something soothing to me about listening to someone speak French regardless of what they’re … Continue reading weirdo beardo feardo
Not really but it sorta rhymed. Here’s some random stuff. I went to bed semi-early last night. Because I’m old and tired and love sleeping almost as much as chocolate. Almost. Now if I could eat chocolate WHILE sleeping, then I’d really have something. I’m having an extraordinarily bad hair day. I’m trying to grow it out and its in a weird stage. Not sure … Continue reading Monday Funday
No workout or run last night and I’m ok with that. I intended to but instead fell asleep with kiddo around 9:00. Got up once to move to my own bed and slept till 6:00. This is unusual and qualifies as a restful night for me. I’ll take it. Tonight however…it’s on like Donkey Kong. I’m going to redo my bad run from Sunday. I … Continue reading sleep trumps most everything
3:00 AM seems to be my time. My time to what, I don”t know exactly, just “my time”. I didn’t mean to fall asleep on kiddo’s floor (yet again) but here I am. Eating Honey Nut Cheerios from the box and struggling to remember my WordPress password because I don’t log in as much as I used to. I remembered it, obs. And dang, I … Continue reading too much
so i hate it when i stay up too late watching stupid pointless tv and/or staring into space (wow, it occurs to me that i do a lot of staring. hello stinkeye) and then i finally pass out in full makeup and without brushing my teeth so i wake up with my face all greasy and itchy and with fuzzy gross teeth and realize that … Continue reading wah wah wah
you know that feeling when you know you should go to bed because its really late but you don’t want to because your mind is whirling and you can’t shut your brain off, plus you’re not really sleepy and are just in that dreamy state of mind where random bizarre thoughts pop into your head and you are really considering driving to the airport and … Continue reading
Easter was nice this year. Kiddo had a good one and got a nice Easter basket from the bunny dude. We didn’t have any family dinners or gatherings so munchkin and I went to the park for the day and had a nice time. Today started off good and then did a bit of a flying flop. I can’t seem to get it together. Its … Continue reading too tired to think of a title
Just saying hi to the internets after being woken from a sound sleep for a kiddo cover check. Like ya do. Ohmahgoodness…just remembered a dream I had…my 90 year old grandma was singing kareoke (a Heart song) at her church…so weird… Carry on about your sleeping… Continue reading 3am
I have a kickin’ case of heartburn and can’t sleep. I woke up feeling like my tongue and throat were swelling up. Weird right? So I googled side effects of my new meds and fought back the urge to call 911. Seriously people, don’t try to self diagnose via the internet because it will scare the heck out of you. I decided to blame the … Continue reading 1:21 am heartburn
Today was nice. We had our first parent-teacher conference ever. Who knew they do those for day care? Turns out, my kid is smart, sweet and socially adept. As if I didn’t already know that but its nice to hear it confirmed by an outside party. Then I picked up The Mayor and we headed to lunch and a viewing of The Hunger Games. A … Continue reading the day
Verdict: gained 10 pounds in a matter of weeks, change in meds, follow-up visit in a month, encouraged to seek therapy. Hello mid-life crisis. The next one that comes around I’m just going to buy a red sports car and be done with it. It sucks to know that the real you is so broken and messed up that it takes outside assistance to right … Continue reading sad panda goes to the doctor
Like nursing home residents party. As in with leg cramps, aches, stiffness and joint pain. Yes, I’m up at 2 am with the new initiative, “Candy for Pee” (more on that another time, lets just call it an incentive program for nighttime potty training for now shall we?) and my soon to be 36 year old aching gams. I’m going to just pretend that it’s … Continue reading these legs don’t sleep, they party
