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meditation and mindfulness

4 Jan

I haven’t yet made meditation a daily habit, which is my goal, but I have incorporated it into my life on a semi-regular basis and even that is pretty amazing so far. I’ve been doing a ton of reading and listening to talks but there’s no substitute for the actual doing. In a way, I think I’m a bit apprehensive about committing to sitting every day becausMeditationSpacee I know it is going to change me substantially. I love change, but when it’s an internal, personal, spiritual one like this is/will be, that seems scarier to me. Perhaps that makes no sense to anyone but me and my therapist, but I get it.

Its not just the physical act of meditation that I’m finding useful, but the act of mindfulness in general and being aware, accepting things without resistance, and so many other principles of being in mindful presence that I’m finding to be applicable in every aspect of life.

I’m so pleased with the sitting space I’ve created in my closet and it is working really well. I found myself in a bit of a restless, panicky, weird place late last night and I went in and did a guided meditation and came out feeling much better and was able to go to sleep.

So here’s to making it a daily habit and embracing personal growth. And keeping my closet clean and clutter free. That may be my biggest challenge.

The you that goes in one side of the meditation experience is not the same you that comes out the other side. ~Bhante Henepola Gunaratana

miscellany

11 Dec

Sick. I really wish someone would bring me some warm gooey chocolate chip cookies today. I’m home sick with a fever, cough, etc etc and I say screw the chicken noodle soup, cookies are where its at. Anyway, mutter mutter growl. At least I should be over it in plenty of time to enjoy the holidays. Bright spot.

Ugly. The news these days y’all. People are so inScreen Shot 2014-12-11 at 1.14.13 PMcredibly evil. Of course, the media skews things like crazy but there is no denying that people are asshats to the extreme. The girl in MS who was burned alive…I can’t even. The parole hearing that recently brought the horrific kidnapping, torture, and murders of a Knoxville couple back into the news. And so many other things that happen every day. Racism, riots, chaos. People are so very angry. 😦 It is so easy to get consumed by it all if you let it. Countering all of this with the positive/good/beautiful things in life is a must.

Kid. Alright, on to happier topics. My kid of course. Heh. She has a Christmas dance recital this weekend which should be fun. I have no idea what her costumes are or what songs she’s dancing to so this will be a nice surprise for momma. Speaking of surprises, I thought we were going to escape it but kiddo mournfully asked The Accountant the other day why the Elf on the Shelf hadn’t visited her house yet. Apparently ALL her friends have elves and even her classroom at school. Grrrrr. I have an unreasonable hatred for that thing but she was SO bummed and we were at risk of having the whole Santa thing come crashing down, so I caved and we have now been invaded by Snowy the Elf. I am not proud of this. But kiddo thinks it fabulous and so here we are. I have put my foot down somewhat and am just moving it around the house. None of this time consuming clever elf scenario crap or posting its antics on social media. Ok ok, the first night I DID make an elf snow angel on the counter in sugar, but that is IT. So there.

Friends. I had a really good friend back in high school and college who I’d lost touch with over the past few years. We went to different high schools but attended the same church and would have sleepovers at each others houses and go on shopping trips, lots of teenage cruising around town, scoping out boys…all of that fun stuff. I moved away and we each got married. We kept in touch until the babies came and then life got busy. I sent her a Christmas card last year which got returned, so this year I made a point to hunt her down. I found her via some internet stalking research and we’ve been emailing this week! Its so great to reconnect! Keep your friends close and make them a priority because they are one of the best things in life and it sucks to lose them. I’m SO happy I found her again! Totally made my week.

Books. I’m reading some really good books lately. I have a list going on Goodreads of ones recommended by friends and some I just want to read for myself. Apparently I am missing out by not reading Neil Gaiman, according to a few friends. I’m not too far into The Ocean at the End of the Lane but so far I am really liking it. Also throwing in some Buddhism, some self help, some health related, and lots more fiction. Reading is good for the soul I say.

Bed. Ok, its back to bed for this sick girl.

1/30/14

30 Jan

Kiddo’s sleepover last weekend was a success and hubs and I were able to enjoy a quiet evening at home. In preparation for our night in, we had planned to enjoy a Mexican feast of homemade nachos with all the fixin’s. A mistake was made in sending me to the store hungry and the cashier asked me if I were having actual Mexicans over for dinner that night because of all the crap I bought. I couldn’t decide if I should be offended on behalf of the local Hispanic population or not, so I just bade a hasty goodbye with my many bags of queso, salsa, and tortillas in tow. It was yummy but I am kind of tired of eating leftovers all week.

100dollars1A kiddo anecdote…I noticed an interesting paper in her school folder today but couldn’t quite decipher her writing. They are learning to put together sentences by sounding out and so of course, the results only make sense to 5 year olds who haven’t had the chance yet to be royally screwed up by the adults who made up the crazy rules of the English language. But I digress. The phrase to complete was “If I had 100 dollars.” I asked her what her answer was and she said “I would save it until I died.” Her father’s influence, I assure you. Misers, those two.

In movie and book news, I went to see Inside Llewyn Davis on Saturday at our local indie theater. I’m not usually a big Coen brothers fan but this one hooked me. I was unfamiliar with Oscar Isaac and found him to be fabulous. And you can’t go wrong with Carey Mulligan, Justin Timberlake and John Goodman. The whole cast was great, then add in Greenwich Village in the early 1960s, a funky plot twist and music via T Bone Burnett…come on. Its a win all around. I loved it so much.

I finished the Millennium trilogy last week. I’m a little bit behind I know. I found them to be serious nail biters. I got angry more than a few times, held my breath throughout, and even yelled out loud when the main bad guy finally got his comeuppance. I love books like that…ones that make you stay up all night reading because you can’t bear to put the book down even though you have to get up early to live your real life but prefer to live in another one during the hours before. Love it.

Wisdom from friends…the early part of this week found me to be a bit pissy. A friend asked how I was doing and I told him I was in a rather dark mood. His reply was “ohhhh, be bright.” Simple, right? Then he took me to lunch and had me laughing my head off an hour later. He looked at me and said, “see, you’re really bright now.” And I was.

Buenas noches!

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